I'll stop the world and melt with you...

Ah. Love this song. For some reason it feels comforting right now. Damn I need to clean my room. It has gotten so bad. It's not just messy, it's dirty. I really spend minimal time in it besides sleeping. Currently, sadly, I am in my room right now but that is just because my computer needs it's charger.

I just feel bored and uninspired with it and whenever I feel that way about anything I ignore it. And do nothing about it. Even if I picked/cleaned it up I have gotten in the habit of spending my time else wear. I am just terrified of all the shit I need to pack up when I go to college because my parents are moving when I do which means all my crap either needs to go in my dorm or dissapear. No bloody clue how that is going to happen. None what so ever.

Blergh. I miss my people. I cannot wait for school to start, planning my first outfit haha. I feel like it's the first day of kindergarden again. Not exactly. Wish my mumsy would let me borrow her Guesto bag but thats a chance about as slim as me cleaning my room.

Did I mention spiders are inhabiting it? I am terrified of spiders of all odd things so that is another odd reason I wont clean in case I happen upon one even if it was clean they would be fairly discouraged from being my roomies.

Oh well tata. I'm going to go play in my mother's purses and watch Mad Men (gotten addicted to yet another TV show. Bad ariel pft..)

~Ariel

That is all.

Lalala I should be sleeping...

So it turns out the pictures I posted hadn't been fixed long enough combined with a shitty scanner is why they looked subpar. I have better prints of most of those. Plus the filters on my enlarger were being a little shit so basically 90% of my prints are better plus I did some 8x10s of a later roll I shot with Kat modeling. It turned out scrumptious and I would have loved having more time/paper to work with those negatives. I am giving her one of the 5x7s framed but I want to keep all the yummy 8x10s for myself. I am planning on putting them in our house in WA since it is really art deprived.

Tomorrow I am going shopping at Nordie's to pick up some tights and basic fall stuff. I need new shoes, found the perfect pair. Still convincing mother to but them.

Heart hug.

~Ariel

Moment of epicnesss!!

I GOT TO PRINT ON 8x10s!! AHHHHH! *dies* I shalt scan them tomorrow when I get them back.

~Ariel

Enjoy.

My Photos:

Photography class :D

So started my photography class monday which has put me in an excellent mood. I love my OM-1 so much. I dont think I could live without it. Plus the lens is just yummy. I may scan in some of my prints later I'd like to put them on flickr.

My enlarger is my newest luvvy. So we only have 7 people in the class including me and I think I am one of 2 people to have ever used anything but a digital point and shoot before and the only one to have developed film. Ahh I am sooo glad my negatives have come out so far. I would die with how much I love some of my shots I've taken if I fucked it up. I am also uber paranoid about the water when you mix the developer being 68 F. Which is really annoying because it take FOREVER to get it just right. I coaxed my neighbor to come over and model for me tonight and I think I got some great shots out of that. I used three candles for extra light since it was around 9 PM and getting dark. She is a kind of annoying model but hell, it's better than photographing homeless people which was my alternative xD

But yeah. I am uber psyched to see how this roll comes out. I have two rolls to develop tomorrow and the one I did today should be dry so I can work on some prints from there.

Back to the enlarger. ahhh... It is amazing. Even the teacher has issues with it but not I. I embrased it's wonkyness and the annoying fact that the filters are built in but at least it has it's lens which some of them are missing *EEEK*

Well I am going to try and scan my photos now. Maybe that'll work xD. Probably not. Oh well.

BTW. I think I am going to ask for a flash and a tripod for surviving french class... Or at least a tripod. I would love to have one.

OH! And I need to bribe another friend into modeling. I think I'd better bake a cake...

Tata. I'll post the scans in a mo.

~Ariel

C'est DOOOM!

NOOOOO! LONGCHAMP SOLD OUT! OF MY DREAM BAG. *dies* This is not possible. 2-3 days ago they had my lover the légende in patent red droolsworthy bowling bag shaped masterpiece. It's gone. They still have the 4x4 which I love but it's 845 and the légende had been marked down to 450 (crazy shit I know) and I just checked and it's gone. I am dead now.

So french final is tomorrow/today in 5 minutes and photography class starts tomorrow so I gotta pack up my Oly and tally ho. I am all to excited. I am also extremely curious as to what kinds of cameras people will be showing up with in class. I am quite proud of my OM-1n. It stands out in the crowd and I think the lady who lives in the house across the street from my bus stop and is always watching me setting there loading film waiting for my bus to lumber it's whale sized ass down the road thinks it's going to shoot missiles at her. It looks like it could. Hey, at least it isn't a Hasselblad. For the price of those it should be able to shoot missiles. *grumbles about overly expensive incredibly yummy hassies*

So. About the french exam. No way I am getting an A. B is good, be would be fine by me. For a 15 year old in a college french class I think a B is rockin. But if I get an A I am in much better standings to whine about my lack of shoes. (pfft. 15 pairs totally isn't enough. Although I only really wear 10 of them) IF I get an A (NEVER HAPPENING).

So yes. I am going to go curl up in the fetal posission from my loss of my lover.

~Ari

I should be getting ready.

French class. Gah. Final and oral exam tomorrow. I think I am dead. Might as well skewer me with a stick. Put me on display to show the world why 4 credit classes in 3 weeks are evil and death to you brain.

I should be getting dressed. Instead I am listening to the Andrews Sisters in my undies and argile socks (borrowed from my mumsy)

Oh. And I got BBQ sauce on my favorite skirt last night so I have to drop that off at the dry cleaners along with a ton of other stuff.

On the good news photography class in 4 days!! YAY! DARKROOM HERE I COME!! Gah. I miss the stench of developer. I think people should make a perfume out of it. True, it would be fairly repulsive and only B&W photography nuts would buy it but hell. It would smell GOOD!

~Ariel. Who's mother took the scale with her to WA so she cannot weigh herself. Is that a sign?

Fetal.

Curling up in the fetal position and listening to Sia works kind of. Am I too young to love? Is that possible? She already loves him what difference does it make if they are dating. Love is love. And I want it. Not unrequited.

I dont want fireworks or butterflies. Just a hand. That seems so simple. Just simple connection between one and another's fingers. Right?

If someone is curled around you while you are in the fetal position does that change you? You are there for the same emotions. Or at least some emotions. But that must change it. Make it comforting somehow. Warm.

~Ariel

Yum..

Bagels. I want bagels. And shoes. Shoes have less calories. But I have no money therefore a bagel is more likely. Fuck. Now I know why I'm fat. That is actually why I am writing this. I have decided to get un-fat. Not that I am really fat. But I feel fat. Which is no fun. Especially around tall people. But it's hard to replace food with shoes when broke.

Hmm. Got back from vacation with the oldsters. I hate fireworks. Especially with me lacking a tripod *which will soon be solved* but yeah. They're loud and I got a bug bite.

On the bright-ish side. I cut my hair, it looks nice. I still feel fat. FAATT FAAAAAAT!

~Ariel who weighs 127 lbs. And shouldn't.

To do...

Things I have done:

• Trimmed my hair (I now have bangs but they refuse to behave grr, my hair is my arch nemesis)
• Taken a shower
• Read many blogs
• Learned what dans means in french (I knew and then forgot)
• Signed up for a summer french class at PSU and a black and white photography class at a local art college! *yay* back to the dark room for me, I miss the smell of developer.
• Fineshed all 30+ eyelets on my corset
• Found my hair bands

Things I should be doing:

• My homework!!!
• Washed my boots
• Vacumed
  
• Ironed my shirt for tomorrow
• Made my white skirt for tomorrow

Eventually I should get around to those but I most likely will not. Oh well, I am happy my hair doesn't look look *quite* so delapedated any more.

Luv and all that jazz,

Ari

School!

Yay so I uploaded or whatever a ton of CDs last night and was really happy to find that a bunch of them have some classical songs I love and have been looking for forever. Sadly the second chopin CD was really dissapointing, the playing was gorgeous (of course) but the music was just to roudy. The waltz CD is so goregous I just wish this one lived up to those standered. There was also this one CD of lute music from scotland that was really gorgeous and also I found a really good Miles Davis CD.

School has been good so far (I am still there, it's break right now) I went to starbucks for lunch and I couldn't believe it, THEY CHARGE YOU FOR FUCKING INTERNET GRRR! I hate them, but they are still my addiction and they have really cheap bagels too. So after that I went shoe shopping well I didn't get any shoes of course, it's durring my lunch break but it's fun to look! So then I went by moon struck and picked up a chocolate for my mom and a chocolate for me. They had the most adorable lady bug truffles but they were 3.50 a piece which I can't afford at all...

Uh oh class is starting

~Ari

Me and my damn music...

Grrr, I still have accomplished zero work *sigh* Ok I typed like 3 paragraphs whoopdy fucking doo. So instead I am loading like 500 (ok 16) CDs onto my computer... Well maybe not all of them I just picked up the ones that looked interesting out of my parents collection and I am listening to them and downloading them now. Right now it's doing Classic Gershwin which I am soo happy they had, it has some of my very favorite songs on it and they are great really clean recordings. I also found the rest of this collection of chopin performed by Artur Rubinstein (one of my favorite pianists) and before I only had one CD and now I have the other one so YAY! I also found a bunch of Debussy which is cool even though I am feeling very murderous towards him right now for putting sooo many sharps in clair de lune it can be very irretating. I also got some classic celtic music and a tooon of Miles Davis so I should be well stocked. I still really want two CDs from itunes, Jack Johnson's first album (sooo addictive, I've been playing my one song from it non stop) and something by Skip James I am so damn addicted to him right now his songs are just so soulfull it makes modern music sound like crap and is great for a kind of blue/grey mood. NOW GO FASTER MAC GO! I HAVE 15 MORE CDS TO GET THROUGH! EEEKK! mmkay well now you know about me and my music addiction and my procastination problem hehe.

~Ari

Done and not done.

So I have a lot of shit to do, homework, yeah that kind of shit *gags* So I have to do an essay on darwin's 4 postulates 4-5 pages due tomorrow (eeek, well the rough draft is done...) for bio. I need to read 7 chapters of the great gatsby for lit/comp plus notes (by tomorrow, and that's what hour long bus rides are for, right?) an essay about 3 generations of my family somewhat consistant to what I said in class (due tomorrow) and thats for sociology joy joy... And a five paragraph essay... IN FRENCH! FUCK! GAG! DIE! Grr... I so don't speak french... Well I guess I can ask what something is introduce myself and call someone a bastard and come on what else do you need to know in reality (or how much is that knowing my current clothing cravings...) but oohh no we are learning vocabulary for soccer, excuse moi, football *sigh* I don't get that game in english and I really don't get it in french... OH! It gets better, then I need to read a 2-3 (I can't remember) chapters of this book in french and summerize it and make decent looking comics out of it and do a sheet on passe compose. Grr.. And what have I done today? Well I've had two snacks, whatched three episodes of 30 rock, practised clair de lune on the piano (grrrr) read my daily blog allowance and charged my ipod and now I am procrastinating, YAY!

Blah. I want shoes.

~Ari

Thoughts and cravings.

OK so I have become addicted to 30 rock. I have stayed loyal to my thursday shows since well forever so I never really watched it but I figured I should watch it online and I did and it's funny as hell, I loove Tina Fey *sigh* anyways yes watch it WAATCH IT! *gets out stop watch and attempts to hypnotize you* shit that totally doesn't work... Anyways...

I really want a new bag, ok random yes but I am random so go with it. I am thinking leather because I am really hard on my stuff and leather bags seem to last the longest for me (or canvas but I dont want a canvas bag, I already have one I like) I am thinking hobo or messenger style maybe black but I could go for brown but I want something really slouchy looking but still interesting. Currently I am in love with these bags: de Lacy specifically this bag and this bag. Now I do normally mind fur but cow hide just doesn't bother me, cow and sheep I can do but nothing else (mostly becaue I've had them for pets and love them too much..) like no rabbit, or wolf but those the fur is just uuuhhh. The bag is a weird mix of modern and almost primal plus I love how leather smells. Anyways back on the bag topic well sorta, I go to a major hippie school and most of my friends would drop kick me out of the window if I wore that, seriously. I just wouldn't want to piss people off. I know that sounds odd because I love the design for being unique and it would get some raised eyebrows but I just wouldn't want to offend people. But damn it's GORGEOUS!

Enough for now, I just thought I would put those out there and really check out the site he has some great bags!

~Ari

Hello!

Hello world! How are you? I'm fine. Haha yeah interesting introduction I've started here *whistles* Well, I'm Ariel though you my deeries can call me Ari and I have a brain stuffed full of thoughts so I figured I'd write them down somewhere. I really need to make a layout (I do know and love html, php and css, woooww go nerds!) but I am to lazy to do that right now... I guess I will end this post and start a new one with my current musings just to help feed my ocd hehe.

~Ari